Ayer apague las velitas de mi pastel de cumpleaños, y por más que lo he estado evitando, pensé en ti.
Estuve a punto de llorar mientras me aplaudía a mi misma y no escuchaba tu voz junto con la mía, como las muchas veces que cantamos juntos.
No sé como, tal vez porque me quiero convencer de que estoy bien, me trague el dolor y me explotó en el pecho. Y sonreí, aunque con los ojos tristes.
Ya no estarás ahí, nunca más.
No quiero verte, no quiero volver a oírte. No quiero que nadie te mencioné ni quiero volver a saber de ti nunca más.
Solo quisiera que desaparecieras junto con todos los recuerdos que tengo tuyos y todo lo que llegue a sentir por ti.
Preferiría despertar un día sin recordar nada de estos últimos 5 años y no saber nada de ti.
Para que me dolieras menos, para estar mejor.
Para superarte más rápido (por que te voy a superar ¿verdad?)
Para olvidarte más rápido (por que te voy a olvidar ¿verdad?)
Para dejarte de querer más rápido (por que voy a dejar de quererte ¿verdad?)
Es un servicio publico. Si mi mundana y pequeña vida puede de alguna manera proveer alivio a algún solitario internauta, entonces sabré que mi tiempo en este planeta no fue un desperdicio. (Jane Lane -Daria)
lunes, 18 de septiembre de 2017
viernes, 8 de septiembre de 2017
GUDBAI
I always tought we were meant to be together.
Like, our love was so strong there was nothing that can tear us apart.
But it happened.
And all the things I used to believe for my future,
all that crazy shit I used to think about
that few seconds that I allowed myself to think of future
(cause God knows I hate thinking about future cause of this)
that little moments of wishful thinking
were I imagined us happy
5 years from now
10 years from now
15 years from now
All of that shit is just gone.
And I am not sure how to handle that.
This why I quit on dreaming,
this is why don't like thinking about future
because we were supposed to have a future
GOD DAMIT
HOW DID IT GOT SO WRONG?!
Guess I was too in love
Guess I was too naive
Guess, after all, I still like thinking
on shit that is not going to happen
And after all of what we went through
I realize
I was always alone
You never went through anything
I was always alone
I was the only one that wanted to try
cause you quit since the beginning
You never trusted in us
Never really care about us
Otherwise why would you be OK
with this?
It doesn't really care anymore.
We are not together anymore.
Forever,
And ever.
Good bye.
Like, our love was so strong there was nothing that can tear us apart.
But it happened.
And all the things I used to believe for my future,
all that crazy shit I used to think about
that few seconds that I allowed myself to think of future
(cause God knows I hate thinking about future cause of this)
that little moments of wishful thinking
were I imagined us happy
5 years from now
10 years from now
15 years from now
All of that shit is just gone.
And I am not sure how to handle that.
This why I quit on dreaming,
this is why don't like thinking about future
because we were supposed to have a future
GOD DAMIT
HOW DID IT GOT SO WRONG?!
Guess I was too in love
Guess I was too naive
Guess, after all, I still like thinking
on shit that is not going to happen
And after all of what we went through
I realize
I was always alone
You never went through anything
I was always alone
I was the only one that wanted to try
cause you quit since the beginning
You never trusted in us
Never really care about us
Otherwise why would you be OK
with this?
It doesn't really care anymore.
We are not together anymore.
Forever,
And ever.
Good bye.
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